01-03-11

I am optimistic about Singapore, job hunting, career searching and finding my true passion. I really believe that this is going to be my time to finally breakthrough from being a hardworking underpaid private company employee. but at the back of all my excitement, loneliness still creeps its way into my mind..

My mom, dad and sister spent the holidays here in Manila. mom and dad will be staying till February but my sister at this very moment is packing her bags for her flight early tomorrow. Next time i'll be seeing her will be when I come home from abroad and only God knows when that would be. I really feel sad about being away from them... specially sad cause I wouldn't be able to see them even before I leave. I'll be alone even before I go on my own. (well I have my brothers, but.. hm, that's a different story. :p)

I won't be leaving till March, still... just thinking bout leaving everything behind to wander a place so strange to me scares me. and thinking bout being alone so far far away from my family really makes me sad. But then again, I have goals.. I just pray for strength to be able to conquer all the sadness. God will be my comfort. and I will hold on to this promise.

God is good all the time, and everything that comes in our lives is a blessing. I've had my share of sadness, pain, heartaches and disappointments in the past year... Then, I couldn't imagine how to get through from every breaking moment.. there were times when I really had nothing and just do not know how I could get by.. But God never failed to amaze me. At that moment of surrender, He would bring a miracle.. something that would save me right at the very second I am about to fall. a small gesture from a stranger or from an unknowing friend, and it would make all the difference. I am grateful to everyone who's been an instrument by God to answer all my prayers. There were also times when he really did let me fall.. but at all the times I fell, I learned lessons.. I guess it's all God wanted us to realize.. his lessons, and after those lessons come blessings.

Weeping may last for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. :-)